Failure

Well... In an attempt to rectify the problems I've had with Blogger things have only gotten worse. I can no longer access my email (williamwilltell@yahoo.com) and now Everytime I try to go to my homepage it crashes completely. Ugh. I swear I have the worst luck, things are just always so complicated. But I don't fucking care. I won't stop this time. It may take a month and I may have to change every goddamn thing or just start brand new but I'll fucking do it. Bit by bit, piece by piece. I'm coming back and nothing can stop me. I'm going to attempt this all again tomorrow and hopefully I can fix at least one damn thing. Oh on top of all of that, I lost all of my old data and media. No thinspo, no sites, no passwords etc. What seems like a lifetime of accumulated information and support - lost. Out of all of this there is one piece of good news. I didn't eat today. Nothing. And that feels great. I know a couple of days ago I weighed 151.6 pounds. So much when I look out how much lower I've gotten and been. But hey, I have to stay positive. Apparently this is a new beginning for me (whether I chose it or not) and I'm just going to make the best of that I can. You'll be hearing from me again, you can count on that. I am determined.

Still trying to be here

Blogger on my device is still an ass. But if I feel determined enough I can get something rough posted. Anyway, I'm in the midst of reading this entire blog on tumblr from beginning to end. There's a lot to be said about my obsessive and addictive personality. Ha Anyway the blog is called proanaboy.tumblr.com I'm about halfway through (60 of 122 pages) but hear is the troubling part. Just from what I read on the first page the boy who kept this particular blog has died. :/ I can't believe it, i hope it's some cruel or twisted hoax but by all appearances it's legitimate. About 20 or 30 pages into reading I said in a choked whisper "No, I don't want him to be dead, he can't be. I need to talk to this boy." Ugh It's a lonely night. I'm getting really motivated to do whatever I can to get blogger working for me again. I need to get back to my girls and my blog on here. I miss you so. And I really, really want to find another ana boy that I can talk with.

Progress

Oh my god. Blogger is officially a pain in my ass to work with. It crashes my mobile device 9 times out of 10 when I try to get on. Now it keeps pooping all over the screen as I'm trying to write this, making me select and load things I don't want to! FRUSTRATION Anyway, I haven't been posting as much as I'd like to but I've been a little busier lately. And truthfully, I just don't have a lot to say about anything lately. I am off to a good start concerni my weight however. I'm down to 146.8 c:

Current Weight

154.5 Ow...

Time Flies

Holy shiiit I suck at this! I could've sworn I posted like two weeks ago tops! Anyway, I didn't end up going to Warped so I kinda lost my motivation. That's no excuse but that's what happened. I REALLY want to get back into this. So I think I may just start writing in a journal every night and then posting that all together like once a week. Sounds like a decent idea right? I just don't have enough going on to post every night but I feel like if I don't do something I'm just going to keep forgetting and falling off the face of the Blogger Earth. I don't know how much I weigh right now or what my plan is to start off my return. I have to figure all of that out today. So you may hear from me again tonight, tomorrow morning, who knows? I look forward to being a part of things with you ladies again! And hooooooopefully being a part of the skinny community again. <3 P.S. This new Blogger set up is seriously malfunctioninng on my mobile device. Pissi me off! So if anything looks weird that I post or whatever I apologize in advance, bare with me. :)

I'm still here.

Fuck, I have not been around in forever. :/ Ms. Piggy brought my attention to that the other day. I mean, I knew I hadn't been obviously but she really got me thinking about it. Blogger has really changed up since I've been on. :P I've been doing decently, I've gained but I've been happy enough. But I've lost some of my way of thinking, my habits and obsessions. That's the real loss. So I'm going to try to get back into blogging. It helps me focus and keep my mind clear. I'm going to Warped Tour in exactly two weeks and I'd like to lose as much weight as possible before then. The plan since last year was to go shirtless but Ha! That is not happening anytime soon. Anyway, I'll keep it short for now. Glad to be back :) 151.6 pounds

The Hunger Games

It's really a wonderful book and it has such a deliciously ironic name. That title is my new inspiration.